Precious Memories

by Princess A (Jamaica)

Hey you my lover, my best friend, my heart, my chocolate, my sweets, my baby.  I am writing this with tears running down my face. I can hardly see the keyboard to type these letters and also with smiles, memories that I will forever cherish.

I never got the chance to say goodbye or any last words to you and am not sure I could say goodbye.

The first day our eyes met that was the day I felt butterflies in my stomach for the first time. Then I started to wonder what this feeling was?

Before I met you I was in a box, I was the girl who went through a lot and wondered who was going to be her first love and you took my hand and we walked that long isle but apparently that isle had a stop line.

You were the best person I have ever met and you have showed me that there is more to life than to just be in a corner and be alone, you have showed me how much love can be amazing…

I love you so much; we have told each other that a lot of times in different ways haven’t we? (smile). You meant so much to me I just wanted to be by your side for the rest of our lives, you have taught me so much, to just be myself in whatever am doing. You bring out that spark in me and I will never be able to thank you enough.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and I never wanted you to go. I miss you so much words can’t explain.

You told me once that “if you’re not here anymore that I should be happy and don’t ever change no matter what because I fell in love with you because of the amazing person you are, you’re caring and honest and you love to smile and your shy in a very cute way”.  And he also said “if am not here anymore, be with someone who makes you happy find love again because that’s what I would want for you and you know you will always have my heart”.

And I said to you why are you talking like that you’re the person am going to be with forever.

We have been together for a long time and I never wanted it to end. I wanted to grow old with you; we always talked about our future together and we had a lot of plans. I wrote a letter for you so that when you get back from the hospital you could read it but you never came back.

When I heard you didn’t make it, so much pain flooded through me that I couldn’t even cry at the same time. I couldn’t believe and I never wanted to believe it and then all the tears starts rushing out like a flood and I couldn’t stop, the pain hurts that I shift from everything even my very life, I just want to be by myself.

I know you said I should live my life but it’s hard, it’s hard to move on, it’s hard to start another chapter without you.

Thank you for all those amazing moments we had together, the encouragements, the hugs, the laughs, the smiles, the tears of joy, the happy moments, the sad moments because all those moments brought us closer and closer every single day, we were one and it’s so hard to not have you anymore.

I will never ever, ever, ever, ever forget you.

We had ups and downs but we were strong. We passed those entire tests that wanted us to part but our love couldn’t fall apart. But now we are parted by destiny and our bodies might not be together and I know I can’t see you again but I know you will be with me every step of the way.

You helped make the person I am today and I just wish you were here so that I could thank you.

I am glad that you were my first love because you have showed me that love exists, you just have to find the right person, follow your heart and never give up, never change, be who you are. The right person that loves you will accept you just the way you are. You have also showed me that life is great so cherish it, don’t waste a minute of it.

All those plans we made, I am going to do everything for the both of us if I have life and strength. I am going to be happy for you and for me.

When you said find love again, you made it sound so easy but I can’t find love right now or anytime soon because I can’t let you go.

You were my first love and you gave me my first kiss, you were an amazing man. I wish I had you for the rest of my life but am going to start a new chapter of my life and you know my whole life so far has been written in that diary so I am going to burn that diary and start a new chapter hopefully.

I hope you will be there that day, watching when I decided to start another chapter of my life as you would have wanted.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU

Me: I love you
You: I love you more
Me: I love you most
You: I love you unconditionally
Me: I love you infinitarary

And I would say give me a word bigger than that and he would laugh. We both loved one another infinitarary. I did make up that word (laugh out loud) but it was our word.

You left precious memories and encouragements that will be forever cherished.

Love, heartbeat.

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